The weekend just flew on by like there was no tomorrow. I can't believe that its the last weekend in January and soon to be February!! Really where did this month go too? And next month is even shorter being only 28 days...this year is going to go by pretty fast. Its going to be a great year..I know it is..
I am making changes in my life this year and its for the best. I am to the point of I have lived in a loveless marriage for long enough, its time for me to move on and get on with life. Why should I stay and just deal with it or just put up with it because of the kids. The kids are all teenagers now except for my youngest whose 12 and they all know and understand that me and their father..well me no longer loves him. I don't say it, I don't even like it when he's home that much. I like it with just me and the kids home. I enjoy the time spent with just me and the kids. I want us to go out and have fun and do things. He just wants to sit on his butt in front of the PC when he's not working and spend absolutely no time with the kids and doesn't even want too and like I told him the other day...one of these days he's going to end up being on his death bed and none of the kids are going to be by his side because he wasn't there for them when they wanted time with him...he's here helping sometimes with chores and money to get them what they need etc but I think that spending time with them before they are all grown up is a lot more needed then the money sometimes. Like yesterday my youngest son Sean was sick with 102 fever and he gets up to hug him bye before he left for work and Leon just freaking stands there doesn't even try to hug him back..just rude and he knew he didn't feel good..I hate the way that he treats him! Ugh! My son deserves to be treated better then that!!