Nov 8, 2008

My weekend so far

Saturday, November 08, 2008

My weekend so far
Category: Life

Good early evening everyone. I hope that you all are having a great weekend so far. Mine is all right so far. I have some articles to write and a few of them by Monday morning at the latest and then blogs out the behind to do..woohoo I finally got paid today so I transferred it to my bank and hoping that it gets in there by Tuesday. Leon got up this morning and went and did his plasma and me and the kids relaxed. Its chilly out but the kids went out and played a little since its a little chilly but not cold. I hate the winter and I am not looking forward to it at all.
 
I am still upset over my uncle but I know him and know that he lives for his Lord and I am thinking that he knows the Lord will take care of him and if its his time to go be with him then its time and that's that. I really hope that he comes back here for the holidays though, at least Christmas so that we can see him and spend time with him.
 
I feel pretty good today, besides another tooth ache, I am doing fine. I am relaxing to for now but fixing to get started on my articles pretty soon since I only have 3-4 to do and then tomorrow ALL day I will be blogging up a storm so that I can make sure that I get in my 60 a day this week and get my money the week after next. I need that money, I was wanting to use it for the kids Christmas. But some of it maybe half needs to go on next months electric bill which they slowly but surely raised on us. It was $70 last winter and now its freaking $155 and then next month $200!! And were on the average monthly thing and have been using everything the same and turning off lights etc  and its still going up..it sucks!
 
President elect Obama gave his first press conference yesterday and he said that he hopes to get a stimulus package passed before his first day as president but if it doesn't, then that will be the first thing that he does when he gets into office. He knows and understands that the main street (all of us) are the ones that need the help not the big corps. Its ridiculous  how the banks and places are closing when I thought that the $700B bailout plan was supposed to help the bank and big companies..what happened? Didn't work like they thought? Hmm, don't figure and know why! HA! That was stupid for them to give any money to the big corps!
 
I have SO much on my mind right now its just overwhelming with things to write about. I need to write my articles, I need to start on my daily 60 blogs tomorrow, I need to make sure Leon goes and pays the water Tuesday morning. I need to call my uncle sometime in the hospital and make sure hes all right. I was thinking about ordering more pg tests but have decided against it and will see if Sandy sends me the 2 tests that she said she would and then by the mid-end of this month if I haven't started which I am nearly positive that I won't b/c my monthly is between the 27th and 1st and another month has come and gone and no period so not to sure what else the deal could or would be..its stressful not knowing positively b/c I don't want something else to go wrong. So that's on my mind and then my family omg I don't want them to know at all!! Because I don't know what they would say and I honestly just outright DONT want to hear it! I want another job that I am doing to come through and to pay me through direct deposit and if that happens then the kids will have a kick ass Christmas and we will be moving first thing on New Years! I want a bigger and better house and were seeing houses all around here with for rent signs so I am hoping that we can get a descent nice and big house with 4 bedrooms or one iwth a built in garage or one with 2 living areas etc b/c I don't want to deal with the 3 bedroom anymore! I want Chris and Sean to share and Jesse still to have her own room and Jared to have his own since he is fixing to be 16 he needs his space and privacy etc and that's my goal to get them having there rooms like that. We will see how the other position does this upcoming week. They paid me pretty fast last week so I am thankful for that. I hope that they will pay fast with the other position and find clients for me fast so that I can do the work and get it done.
 
I need to update my sites. I need to update Y360 and my multiply site. My blogger site to. I have updated a little of it but not all and I need to make sure all the links and banners work so that I can start advertising them. I need to just update everything.
 
I have a huge to-do and get done list. Not to sure how much I'm going to get done but I'm gonna try to get a little done. I hope that everyone has a great and safe weekend

Nov 7, 2008

Still upset, but doing ok

Friday, November 07, 2008

Still upset, but doing ok
Category: Life

Good morning everyone. I hope that you all are doing great and enjoying your Friday. I, on the other hand am still pretty upset about the news I got last night about my uncle but I will be ok. I just hope that he decides to come back home and stay with my grandma so that we can be with him as much as possible. They gave him 6 months.
 
Not doing to much today, I need to make a few phone calls and hope that the lady that was supposed to of paid me on Wednesday pays me today. I haven't seen her online yet and that makes me nervous b/c she said that I should get it today. I need to take it and pay on my cable so I don't have to stress anymore about it.
 
Its nice out today, sunny and nice, it was a little cooler this morning. I have a lot on my mind but I think that I need to relax for a little while and get my mind clear and then do my work or I am not going to be good at it. I am thinking about doing another job that I got offered last night. I just have to go to a site and take there test and that will be that. I hope that you all enjoy your day and have a good and safe weekend..hugs

Nov 6, 2008

My day of very mixed emotions

Thursday, November 06, 2008

My day of very mixed emotions
Category: Life

Today was alright until earlier tonight and the blog about that is the one before this one, finding out that my uncle has cancer..horrifying!

This morning me and hubby got out and went and got my money from western union then we went and paid the electric bill. We went to wally world and got a $1 double cheeseburger and fries at the McD's in wally world. We went shopping and spent about $30 on a few things and then hopped the bus and came home. Not to much else wnt on. I took a nap and woke up in pain! There was a stinging feeling inside of me and it felt like something was pullying my belly button but it was on the inside of me. I coudln't feel anything move, just a pulling on my belly button and it was a stinging but it hurt feeling. That is how I woke up, so yea fun! I called Sandy and said what in the world does this sound like to you and told her the feeling and she said your pg! I went online and put in pulling feeling on inside of belly button or something like that and it came up with a lot of results and 9/10 dealth with being pg. It said that the pulling was b/c of things growing and sttretching in there. so I again took the freaking last test and it again came back negative!!!! So shes sending me 2 tomorrow morning that she took. I think its the freaking kind of test I got or something b/c this is crazy. I haven't had my monthly for 2 months now. The last time was Sept 1st. I had spotted in the middle of last month and had the blood clots which I thought was a miscarriage but apparently it wasn't or else I did miscarry and then got pg again so soon?! I don't know this is driving me up a wall. So shes sending them tomrrow and then I will get them at the first of next week and see what one says then wait til in the middle of the month and do another one if I dont' start by then. Its not freaking menopause b/c I dont have the sysmptoms and I am not to sure honestly what else it could be!

 Hugs everyone have a good night and Friday.

Life is so unfair to good people, I just found out my uncle has cancer

Life is so unfair to good people, I just found out my uncle has cancer
Current mood: sad
Category: Life

Good evening everyone. Our night was going fine, we were spending family time after we ate spaghetti for supper and we were playing with the kittens and then survivor was coming on so we were doing alright and enjoying time together just talking etc and then the phone rings, Jared looks to see who it is and its my mom, he answers it and I come in here and talk to her and she tells me that my uncle Bobby has cancer!!!! And not only does he have cancer, the doctors gave him 6 months!!!!!!!!

She said that the other day he was hurting so he went in to the dr and then they decided to do some tests and I guess yesterday or today they put him in the hospital and told him that they found cancer on his liver. They did a colonscopy and found a big thing of cancer all over his colon no way to save it and it was making it spread other places in him. Then she said that it had spread to his lungs to. So not only is it in his liver, but his colon and lungs to. She said that he made the decision to go ahead and let them do surgery in the morning and take out his colon completely and put the bag thing on him. Then he would have to decide if he wanted to do the chemo or not. My grandfather, his dad, died of lung cancer about 8 years ago in Oct and that was so horrible to see him so weak and nothing you could do but just be there with him and let him know that we love him. And now my uncle. I was very very close with my grandfather b/c I was his first grandchild for 5 years so we were very close and then with my uncle we hit it off to b/c I was his first niece and even when I had my first son Jared, we were still close when we lived in the same town and there for awhile we lived next door in 1 bedroom little houses. He took me on my first motorcycle ride which scared the tar out of me!! He took me to the lake and all around there and mountain climbng and fishing and things I loved it. He spent time with my kids to, not so much my youngest Sean b/c he moved right after grandpa died and that was when Sean was barely 2. Anyway, I love him, hes such a great guy and so much into his faith. A full Christian and he got me into going to church back when we lived in the same town and then I kinda just stopped but for the time I went I enjoyed it, it was just hard with all the little kids so little then and me pg back then to with Sean etc. it was just hard to get them out and around that was my excuse, but I know now that I should get my kids back into church and see if we can find one that is a good fit for us. We have had bad experiences with churches like the family worship center, that just wasn't for us b/c my kids told us that they showed movie/cartoons and it had the woman and guys private parts showing and that was just NOT right and so we immediately stopped going there. So I just need to try to find one where we feel comfortable b/c I can tell you now, I don't feel comfortable going in a dress and all gussied up, thats just not me, I want to be able to be relaxed, look nice but be relaxed if that makes since. I don't have money to buy nice church clothes like dresses for me and Jesse and suits for the boys, theres just no way and not to mention that they woudln't feel comfortable dressed up like that either and I think that you need to make sure that your comfortable. For us its been here at home, we pray, we do our thing, its just not out in public and I feel that as long as we feel good about ourselves and our faith that we don't have to go out in public to a church to be a good person and christian. We are good people, were just shy.

Its just so unfair that things like this happen to so many good people out there. My friend just told me earlier that someone in her family was diagnosed with cancer and this person has other health issues to deal with and now this. Its just so unfair and it hurts b/c what can we do? We are there for them as much as we can be and we tell them we love them and were here for them, but is that good enough? I feel so useless sometimes when others are sick and I just don't know what to do or say sometimes.

So please if you can, could you all say an extra prayer for my uncle with cancer. I really appreciate it.

I hope that he does the surgery and decides to come back here and live with my grandma. I don't want him there in OH, I feel he needs to be here at home with his family by him. This is a picture of him when he came to visit a few months back, his name is Bobby. Thats me and my daughter with him. I am so glad that I had my son take the picture of us.

9:42 PM 

Thoughts

Thoughts
Category: Life

I have gotten plenty on my mind these days. Some good and some stressful. I am thankful and blessed for the things and people in my life. I appreciate each and every one of my friends. I am doing alright. I was down there for awhile but I am ok now. I know that things will get better, might take a little while but they will. I think once we get moved out of this house and situated that we will be better. I think that we just need to get out of this house and out of the neighborhood preferably. Its not the best in the world and has gone downhill since the 2 years that we've been here. We just need to get in a better place to where I don't hear a story in the freaking paper saying that basically 2 blocks away there has been a shooting!!! Missing 2 little girls while sleeping 6 inches from there heads! That just really really got to me and I think thats one of the biggest reasons I want out of the neighborhood. I use to feel safe and f ine here and for some reason now, I guess ever since the crappy shootings and such I just don't feel safe for my kids or myself. So the sooner we move the better. Not to mention there are way to many spiders coming in this house!! I can't stand spiders!!

Anyway, I know that some of my friends weren't for Obama, I know that the ones who weren't are probably thinking omg now what is this world really coming to or omg is he really going to do what he said that he would? Well all I can say is give him a chance to show us that he will do what he said. Apparently alot of us believed in him because there was over 7million I think popular votes for him or more beating McCain by a good amount something like 53-47 or something so yea that tells me that alot of people believe in him and his words. Have faith everyone it will be ok, it will get better.

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