Dec 17, 2007

Venting

I just wanted to sit here and blog. I have alot on my mind. FIRST of all...people just don't know what is going on around here at my house. I blog my feelings on here and I blog my thoughts and vent on here and you know some things might sound worse then they are when I blog it. REGARDLESS no one knows what goes on here except me, SO to those of you who think that my kids are getting mentally abused or any other type of abuse they aren't. YOU ARE NOT PSYCHIATRISTS and don't know what is going on here. I don't like it when people sit there and basically in a nut shell putting it nicely act like I am sitting here and just letting my kids be treated badly. I LOVE MY KIDS!!!! I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR MY KIDS! So for those of you that said that when they get older they are going to hate there dad and resent me for letting him treat them the way that he is...BITE ME! My kids won't resent me...I have done nothing but love my kids, tend to my kids, care for my kids, and stood up for my kids. And for the one that said that physical abuse comes and goes and its over faster then the mental...HAVE YOU EVER BEEN PHYSICALLY ABUSED???? Have you???? I bet that you haven't b/c if you have, the you wouldn't be freaking saying that BULLSHIT about oh well it comes and goes away fast!! MY ASS!!!! I got physically abused growing up by my mom and then my moms 3rd husband so you know what I would of rather of gotten more mentally abused which I did rather then get the HELL beat out of me every day!!!!! What the HELL do you know about Physical abuse!!!!????? You just don't know the way that I grew up. You just DONT know the hell that I was put threw as a kid. Maybe you two didn't mean it all that badly, maybe you were just stating your opinions and what you THOUGHT you knew, but let me tell you something, if you haven't been threw it then you DONT know. OH and just because some damn teacher in a class room talks about mental abuse being worse then physical...that don't mean JACK unless they have been through it! All they know is what they are told and thats it. Definately disagree with the comments and opinions that the two of you have. and YOU know who you are....
You know I blog to get things off of my mind and to vent about things, not to be told that I am going to be resented by my kids when they grow up b/c of the way that there dad pesters them. I was more physically abused then mentally but I will tell you something, I was mentally to. I was NEVER told I love you. I was the black sheep of the family. I was looked down on NO matter what I did or didn't do. I know about abuse and my kids are not abused in any way, shape or form. I was lied to when I was a child, I was told that I looked like my dad thinking that my dad was the man that was on my birth certificate until I was 30 or so and found out that hes NOT my dad. I was tormented when I was a child. I konw what growing up is and hating and resenting your mom for lying to me all of these years and why she told my family memebers things about me that weren't true and always wandered why she couldn't or didn't want to tell me that she loved me. I had a hard life and I will be damned if I am going to sit by and let my kids have any part of a bad life like I did growing up. I love my kids more then anything in the world and I show them and tell them that every day since the day they were each born!!!! They might not have everything in the world that they want but they have everything that they need. Love and being taken care of. No one is perfect...and I never claimed to be and I know that you two that commented aren't as great and wonderful probably as you would like others to think. So I don't give a damn what you think, think whatever you want...but believe me I am going to come back and tell you what I think to b/c this is me and my family that your talking about and I am not going to sit back quietly and take it when you don't know what the hell your talking about.
So other then that BS going on today, it was a pretty good day. We got out and went and paid the water and went to walmart and a got a few things of food to last us a couple of days. We missed the bus when we walked out of walmart so we hung around for an hour waiting for the next bus to come around. At least it was descent weather like 50's or so. We got home before Jared got home and put up things and I came in here to relax. Thats when I read the comments and was so steamed that I decided to go in the other room and clean and do things to calm down.
Good news, I got an email from one of my best friends Brian. I wrote him back and told him that were moving by him. I got a phone call from Chris' school today, it was good not bad thank goodness, just wanted to let me know that hes doing good. Had a great night. Watched Harry Potter the new movie together. It was ok. I guess I just wasn't really in the mood to watch it. Im tired and cranky.
Cant believe that Christmas is next week..goodness where the heck has the time and year gone to? I am in the process still of moving my 360 blogs to my multiply so hopefully I get work on those and get some more done tonight here in a few and more tomorrow since were staying home and not getting out.
I hope that you all have a great night..hugs

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